This Friday night is not unlike any other heartbroken night I've spent before, it just seems to be kind of a delayed reaction to things.
Jason and I have not been together for five weeks now. At first, it wasn't so hard because of his schedule, I just felt like he was working and I was just staying busy. Too busy to realize what happened. Now though? Now I miss him like crazy. And as I type this, I can't stop crying. I'm actually crying so hard I can't get any air in through my nose, and there's a steady stream of tears flowing down my cheeks.
It takes a lot for me not to call him. It takes a lot for me to not contact him at all, even if it's all I can think about and all I want to do. Right now being a "strong woman" sucks. It's about the hardest thing to do and be.
I thought he was the one. Why am I so bad at choosing men? I can't ever seem to find one who wants the same thing I want at the same time. In fact, I'm really good at picking the opposite.
I just needed to get some thoughts out. I really need to calm down and get some sleep though.
