Friday my brother asked me if I wanted to join him and some of his co-worker friends for happy hour at Rock Bottom Brewery down the street from our house. DUH! Happy hour is my favorite hour, why would I say no to that? I also called up Ray to see if he wanted to join us as well. He jumped at the opportunity. It was fun at Rock Bottom, but I'm not a big fan of their beers or their food really so I just had some wings, my brother and his girlfriend were about to leave around 6:30 and I didn't want to just hang out with his co-workers so Ray and I left also. We went to Turf Club down in Golden Hill! I haven't been their in ages it seems and Ray had never been there. We got there and there was about a 30 minute wait for a table so we sat and talked over a few beers. He's so sweet, and the more I talk to him, the more I like him. We found out even more little things that we seem to have in common. That happens pretty much every time we hang out though.
Saturday was our planned day. He came up with his friend/roommate and we went to my best friend's house to hang out there before the races. We sat around with my best friend's husband and his friends, drank beers and watch the Padres while we waited for others to show up. We walked over to the races, drank some beers, watched the ponies and hung out with the boys. It was a really good time! I ended up saying something to Ray about my potty mouth, and just said "your girl has an awful mouth" or something to that effect and he jumped on it. He asked me if he could call me his "girl" officially. I wasn't saying that at all, but I don't mind the idea of it. I really like hanging out with him, he's super sweet, a great kisser, so I told him he could if he wanted to. So, he kissed me and I supposed I have a boyfriend! Ray ended up staying the night and it was great. We laid in each others arms, we kissed, we didn't take it any further, I'm not ready to actually, and he didn't even try for it. He really is a gentleman to me. He says things to me, and I actually believe him. It's been a long time since I've had this sort of feeling about someone. Just laying in his arms makes me smile. Looking in his eyes scares me and makes me smile and makes my heart jump all at once. I'm happy! I just hope I don't get too scared and freak out about things.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Uh-oh
I like Ray. I LIKE him. We went to the movies last night. I wasn't sure about it, but I invited him over to have dinner with my brother and his girlfriend and me. We grilled and then hung out for a little bit before the movie. He's really cute. And so so sweet to me. I like him. Change of heart I guess. Maybe I just needed to hang out with him again.
I think I got so caught up in the idea of Brent that I didn't even give Ray a real chance. I'm glad I got to see him last night.
I think I got so caught up in the idea of Brent that I didn't even give Ray a real chance. I'm glad I got to see him last night.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Last night on the phone
I called Ray last night to say hello, and see how his week was going. We started talking about the races on Saturday. He is going to go with me to my best friend and her husband's before the race and then have his friends meet up with us. He said he'd rather come hang out with me if that's okay. Then he asked what I was doing tomorrow night and if I wanted to go to the movies or something. That he doesn't think he can wait 'til Saturday to see me. WOW. Really forward, really sweet, but really forward. We're going to go to the movies tonight though.
Logically, he and I make sense together. He's really sweet, he's smart, we have a lot of the same interests, we can talk for days, he really likes me and I know he would treat me like a princess. I think there is just something missing for me though. Why can't I find someone like this that I feel the same about? Does that even exist? Or is the relationship always lop-sided? Does one person always have to like the other more than they like them? It doesn't seem fair, but it seems to be the way it goes.
Logically, he and I make sense together. He's really sweet, he's smart, we have a lot of the same interests, we can talk for days, he really likes me and I know he would treat me like a princess. I think there is just something missing for me though. Why can't I find someone like this that I feel the same about? Does that even exist? Or is the relationship always lop-sided? Does one person always have to like the other more than they like them? It doesn't seem fair, but it seems to be the way it goes.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Monday at the office
When Brent finally rolled into work this morning he did a nice little double take and gave me a quick "Hey Lily" and kept on walking. I returned the hello and couldn't do anything but smile from ear to ear.
About 30 minutes later Ray came into my office to make our Monday delivery. He was nervous to go back to my bosses office. He knew he was about to get hassled. He came back out with a smile on his face, and said "He remembers my name now." He asked me if I had heard about a Micro Brew Fest going on at the race track this weekend. I said I did, and that my friend's husband had just e-mailed a group of us and that I thought I was going to go with them. He said that he had mentioned it to some of his friends too and that they were going to go. I said that we would have to meet up. He said "definitely" and that he would talk to me later.
At the end of the day Brent was walking by my office, and peeked in to check out if it was safe for him to come in and talk to me. There was no one around so he stopped in with a grin on his face. He asked how my day was. And then asked, with a smirk if I had a good weekend. I said "Yea, it was good!" and gave out a little chuckle. I asked him how his was as he started to step away from the door way. He said "It was okay!" "Just okay?" I shouted after him. He popped his head around the door and said "I'm just teasin'!" With that he took off.
I've got it bad for Brent for sure. I was talking with a girlfriend of mine today about him. She asked me what I wanted from him. If I was just interested in him because of the sexual attraction, or if there was something else there. I didn't know how to answer. I like him, he's a nice man, he funny, and fun, and intelligent. I definitely think he is handsome, and am so attracted to him. But is this a sexual thing? I wonder if that's all this is... I'm back in my head again. And he hasn't even asked me out again. All this thinking and it may all be for nothing! On that note, I have some more thinking to do and I think the best place to do this is in my bed!
About 30 minutes later Ray came into my office to make our Monday delivery. He was nervous to go back to my bosses office. He knew he was about to get hassled. He came back out with a smile on his face, and said "He remembers my name now." He asked me if I had heard about a Micro Brew Fest going on at the race track this weekend. I said I did, and that my friend's husband had just e-mailed a group of us and that I thought I was going to go with them. He said that he had mentioned it to some of his friends too and that they were going to go. I said that we would have to meet up. He said "definitely" and that he would talk to me later.
At the end of the day Brent was walking by my office, and peeked in to check out if it was safe for him to come in and talk to me. There was no one around so he stopped in with a grin on his face. He asked how my day was. And then asked, with a smirk if I had a good weekend. I said "Yea, it was good!" and gave out a little chuckle. I asked him how his was as he started to step away from the door way. He said "It was okay!" "Just okay?" I shouted after him. He popped his head around the door and said "I'm just teasin'!" With that he took off.
I've got it bad for Brent for sure. I was talking with a girlfriend of mine today about him. She asked me what I wanted from him. If I was just interested in him because of the sexual attraction, or if there was something else there. I didn't know how to answer. I like him, he's a nice man, he funny, and fun, and intelligent. I definitely think he is handsome, and am so attracted to him. But is this a sexual thing? I wonder if that's all this is... I'm back in my head again. And he hasn't even asked me out again. All this thinking and it may all be for nothing! On that note, I have some more thinking to do and I think the best place to do this is in my bed!
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Weekend in Review
Saturday with Ray: He picked me up at 7, he got out, told me I looked nice and then opened the door for my side of the truck. I got really nervous as I was walking out, but I hopped up into the truck and we were off. We went to Sushi Ota, a sushi joint in PB. It was great, we talked and ate some sushi for a little over two hours. We jumped back into the truck and we were off to the Catamaran to catch the Bahia Belle. As we're waiting, we were talking, and joking, and laughing, and having a great time. We caught word that the Belle was sold out, so we had to find a new destination. We went to Jose's Court Room. It was busy, and a good mixed crowd. We had a couple more beers and talked and laughed some more. My cheeks hurt from laughing so much that night. It was a really good time. He took me home and asked if he could walk me to my door. He was a total gentlemen. Walked me to my door and I invited him in, and we sat on the couch and talked some more. He was so sweet. We kissed and he told me that he had been wanting to do that for "about 6 months now". I walked him out and kissed him goodnight (even in my heels I still had to stand on my toes to reach him) he asked me when he could call me, if tomorrow was too soon. I told him he could call me tomorrow.
Sunday with Brent: I wore a sundress and flip flops since he said to dress casual. I showed up at a couple minutes before 4 and ordered a beer. A Yellowtail to be precise. Started to drink and I was just sitting waiting when Brent showed up. He came over and said hello and kissed me on the cheek. I was so nervous. After all, I only had the hots for this man since I first met him way back in October. He asked if I played pool, I told him I can, it's fun, but that I wasn't very good at it. He too ordered a Yellowtail, and we went into the bar and played a couple rounds of pool. He proceeded to tell me that he went out with a friend of his the night before and "guess who I ran into?" he asked. I rolled my eyes and asked if he went out in PB. He said yes, and immediately I knew he was talking about my ex. He nodded and said he started to feel a little guilty when he saw him, especially when he introduced Brent to his friend as "the guy that works down the hall from Lily". I asked "are you kidding me? That's who you are to him? The guy that works down the hall from me? That's it?" I told him that I didn't feel like I owed my ex anything and that he and I were not going to get back together. We moved on from me getting my ass kicked twice at pool to a table. We continued to talk and flirt and talk some more. He asked me to come over to his side of the table. Of course I went. He started to touch my leg and caress my back, and then - he kissed me. It sort of caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting it, not then, not there. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't objecting, I was a willing participant. Three beers deep I went to the restroom, when I came back he had already asked for the bill. He paid the bill and asked me if I'd walk him to his car, I immediately said "Depends on where you're parked." I'm such a smart ass sometimes! He sort of chuckled and said he was "right out here". We went out and he was parked on the same street as me. He said "Oh then you can drive me to my car!" Okay, so hop in, I'll give you a ride Brent. We got in my car and I asked which one was his, and how far I needed to go up. He pointed back and said "that one". Of course! The Expedition! He has three sons, what else would he drive?! Oh god. I pull over to let him out and he says that he was glad he came out and met up with me, I said that I was too and we kissed again. He said he wanted a hug, I leaned over my center console and with my seat belt restraining me, tried to hug him. It just wasn't working so I said that I wanted a real hug and hopped out of the car to meet him on the sidewalk for a hug and of course a kiss. He just sat in the passenger seat and said "come here, give me a hug then." I came in, sat on his lap, wrapped my arms around him and kissed him some more. He's so hot, and while I wanted to do more than just kiss this guy, I didn't want things to go much further right then and there. He kissed me on the lips and worked his way down my neck onto my chest and said that he wanted to feel my "B's". I through my head back with a smirk on my face and said "I bet you do!" He kissed me some more and went in to peek at my "B's". I pulled away slightly and he asked me "If it was him or where we were?" I said that it was because it was now, basically, I didn't want to take it any further right then. Which was a lie. I wanted to rip his clothes off, right then, right there. On that side street in La Jolla, in the daylight with bar patrons walking by. I don't know why, but I am so hot for this 43 year old man. So hot. He got out of my car, got in his dad-mobile and drove off.
Tomorrow will be interesting to see Ray and Brent, and to see how things are and what will be done and said. I didn't think this far ahead, but now I'm anxious to see what will become of this, and how close these two guys really are. We shall see! As for now, I have Brent on the brain and a guilty feeling about Ray.
Sunday with Brent: I wore a sundress and flip flops since he said to dress casual. I showed up at a couple minutes before 4 and ordered a beer. A Yellowtail to be precise. Started to drink and I was just sitting waiting when Brent showed up. He came over and said hello and kissed me on the cheek. I was so nervous. After all, I only had the hots for this man since I first met him way back in October. He asked if I played pool, I told him I can, it's fun, but that I wasn't very good at it. He too ordered a Yellowtail, and we went into the bar and played a couple rounds of pool. He proceeded to tell me that he went out with a friend of his the night before and "guess who I ran into?" he asked. I rolled my eyes and asked if he went out in PB. He said yes, and immediately I knew he was talking about my ex. He nodded and said he started to feel a little guilty when he saw him, especially when he introduced Brent to his friend as "the guy that works down the hall from Lily". I asked "are you kidding me? That's who you are to him? The guy that works down the hall from me? That's it?" I told him that I didn't feel like I owed my ex anything and that he and I were not going to get back together. We moved on from me getting my ass kicked twice at pool to a table. We continued to talk and flirt and talk some more. He asked me to come over to his side of the table. Of course I went. He started to touch my leg and caress my back, and then - he kissed me. It sort of caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting it, not then, not there. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't objecting, I was a willing participant. Three beers deep I went to the restroom, when I came back he had already asked for the bill. He paid the bill and asked me if I'd walk him to his car, I immediately said "Depends on where you're parked." I'm such a smart ass sometimes! He sort of chuckled and said he was "right out here". We went out and he was parked on the same street as me. He said "Oh then you can drive me to my car!" Okay, so hop in, I'll give you a ride Brent. We got in my car and I asked which one was his, and how far I needed to go up. He pointed back and said "that one". Of course! The Expedition! He has three sons, what else would he drive?! Oh god. I pull over to let him out and he says that he was glad he came out and met up with me, I said that I was too and we kissed again. He said he wanted a hug, I leaned over my center console and with my seat belt restraining me, tried to hug him. It just wasn't working so I said that I wanted a real hug and hopped out of the car to meet him on the sidewalk for a hug and of course a kiss. He just sat in the passenger seat and said "come here, give me a hug then." I came in, sat on his lap, wrapped my arms around him and kissed him some more. He's so hot, and while I wanted to do more than just kiss this guy, I didn't want things to go much further right then and there. He kissed me on the lips and worked his way down my neck onto my chest and said that he wanted to feel my "B's". I through my head back with a smirk on my face and said "I bet you do!" He kissed me some more and went in to peek at my "B's". I pulled away slightly and he asked me "If it was him or where we were?" I said that it was because it was now, basically, I didn't want to take it any further right then. Which was a lie. I wanted to rip his clothes off, right then, right there. On that side street in La Jolla, in the daylight with bar patrons walking by. I don't know why, but I am so hot for this 43 year old man. So hot. He got out of my car, got in his dad-mobile and drove off.
Tomorrow will be interesting to see Ray and Brent, and to see how things are and what will be done and said. I didn't think this far ahead, but now I'm anxious to see what will become of this, and how close these two guys really are. We shall see! As for now, I have Brent on the brain and a guilty feeling about Ray.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
When you can talk forever
I called Ray on my way home from school tonight, I wanted to talk to him again, and I wanted to find out whether he was able to get reservations at the sushi restaurant that we were talking about going to on Tuesday when we first spoke. He said that he was able to get us a table at 7:30. Sounds great to me! So, that left the chore of what to do after dinner. I told him that I didn't want to go to a movie, because I wanted to be able to talk with him. He said he was thinking the same thing. He said that he was asking some coworkers about what to do and they suggested the Bahia Belle. I knew what it was but I was thinking that it was expensive, he said it's only $6 to take a ride around the bay and it stops at the Catamaran. It sounds like so much fun! I've never done that before, and I'm so excited to go do it now!!
We ended up just talking, and talking and talking some more. For someone who is "not a phone person" he sure can talk! It was really nice though, we seem to have some similar quirks and interests and now I'm really excited to go out with him on Saturday. An hour an a half later, we finally got off the phone, and even then it was a conscience effort to actually hang up with him. He's smart, and funny, and sweet, and cute, and he's tall! Thank God! A tall one! Saturday should be a good time.
We ended up just talking, and talking and talking some more. For someone who is "not a phone person" he sure can talk! It was really nice though, we seem to have some similar quirks and interests and now I'm really excited to go out with him on Saturday. An hour an a half later, we finally got off the phone, and even then it was a conscience effort to actually hang up with him. He's smart, and funny, and sweet, and cute, and he's tall! Thank God! A tall one! Saturday should be a good time.
I have two dates!
Ray on Saturday. And now Brent on Sunday. That's right, the ever-illusive Brent and I are going out on Sunday. "Sunday at four." I was informed just today. I think I am more excited to go out with Brent, as I have had a crush on him longer than I've known Ray. I don't know whether that's good or bad, but it is. I also happen to think that I am far too excited to go out with a man 16 years my senior who has three young boys. I am also excited to find out about him first hand for more than a 2 minute, passing in the hall conversation.
The plans to do something on Sunday were solidified yesterday. He rolled by my office when he came in yesterday morning and asked me to come by his office a little later. On my way to pick up lunch for the office, I popped in. He initially asked if I wanted to get together on Saturday night, but I had to inform him that I couldn't because I was busy. Knowing full well that I had asked out Ray the day before he began to give me a hard time. "Oh with the guy that you asked out the other day?" I replied with an embarrassed smile and a meek "Yes." He again informed me that he can't believe I asked someone out and it wasn't him and that his feelings were hurt. I told him very fast, that I didn't know where he was coming from, that I just didn't know. He said he didn't know where he was coming from either considering he knows my ex and they have mutual friends. He also reiterated that he would like to keep this from my ex, I agreed whole-heartedly. What he doesn't know won't hurt him. It's just a date right? He then started giving me the third degree. "What's this guy do? How old is he? Is he a nice guy? Where is he taking you on Saturday?" I was shocked at how forward he was and a little taken aback, but his nice smile and easy-going laughter quickly made me comfortable again. I said that he was the flower delivery guy, and that he was a nice guy, and he was a year older than I was. I told him sushi, he kind of smiled and said, "I guess I won't take you to sushi on Sunday then." He then, went for a jab at Ray, "Sushi, isn't that a little pricey for a flower delivery guy?" Oh God. I laughed and shruged and said "I don't know, but that's what we're doing."
This should be an interesting weekend! I cannot wait, especially for Sunday!
The plans to do something on Sunday were solidified yesterday. He rolled by my office when he came in yesterday morning and asked me to come by his office a little later. On my way to pick up lunch for the office, I popped in. He initially asked if I wanted to get together on Saturday night, but I had to inform him that I couldn't because I was busy. Knowing full well that I had asked out Ray the day before he began to give me a hard time. "Oh with the guy that you asked out the other day?" I replied with an embarrassed smile and a meek "Yes." He again informed me that he can't believe I asked someone out and it wasn't him and that his feelings were hurt. I told him very fast, that I didn't know where he was coming from, that I just didn't know. He said he didn't know where he was coming from either considering he knows my ex and they have mutual friends. He also reiterated that he would like to keep this from my ex, I agreed whole-heartedly. What he doesn't know won't hurt him. It's just a date right? He then started giving me the third degree. "What's this guy do? How old is he? Is he a nice guy? Where is he taking you on Saturday?" I was shocked at how forward he was and a little taken aback, but his nice smile and easy-going laughter quickly made me comfortable again. I said that he was the flower delivery guy, and that he was a nice guy, and he was a year older than I was. I told him sushi, he kind of smiled and said, "I guess I won't take you to sushi on Sunday then." He then, went for a jab at Ray, "Sushi, isn't that a little pricey for a flower delivery guy?" Oh God. I laughed and shruged and said "I don't know, but that's what we're doing."
This should be an interesting weekend! I cannot wait, especially for Sunday!
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
I have a date!
Ray called me while I was in class this evening. He left a message to see when we could go out and he was not messin' around. He said he has Padres tickets for tomorrow and that he was thinking Thursday. I can't get together with anybody on Thursday's because of class.
I called him back on the way home and we talked on the phone for about a half an hour! It was really nice to talk to him. We decided that Saturday would work since I have a test that morning and I should study on Friday night. We know we're going to get some sushi, but beyond that, no plans yet. He said he would call again before we went out, and that I should feel free to call him too.
He also said he's not much of a phone person and he must have been really enjoying talking to me because we had been on the phone for so long. He's cute, and I can't wait to go out with him on Saturday.
I called him back on the way home and we talked on the phone for about a half an hour! It was really nice to talk to him. We decided that Saturday would work since I have a test that morning and I should study on Friday night. We know we're going to get some sushi, but beyond that, no plans yet. He said he would call again before we went out, and that I should feel free to call him too.
He also said he's not much of a phone person and he must have been really enjoying talking to me because we had been on the phone for so long. He's cute, and I can't wait to go out with him on Saturday.
Monday, July 16, 2007
Back to Brent
Today was crazy! I got flowers from Kurt, asked out Ray, and then this. Jake, a really nice man that works in the neighboring suite saw me talking to Ray in the hall. He was bustin' my chops a little and said "I bet that's not your boyfriend!" I told him I didn't have a boyfriend anymore. That he and I broke up a couple months ago. He was surprised "WHAT? Why didn't you tell me!?" He then informed me that Brent always talks about me. "He does?" I asked. He said that he does and inquired as to whether I thought he was too old for me, or if he wasn't my type. I told him that wasn't it at all. I kind of filled him in, and said that he knows my ex and that I'm not sure what he told Brent but I think he's under the impression from my ex that we may be getting back together which is not the case all. He took it upon himself to play matchmaker. He apparently ran into Brent in the hall or bathroom or something, because out of nowhere, about 20 minutes later Brent pops in to ask how my weekend was, mind you, he has barely spoken to me since the weekend that he told me he saw my ex.
At any rate, he proceeds to inquire as to whether I was seeing anyone, I told him I asked someone out today. He said "You did? Aww...I'm right down the hall and you asked someone else out?" as he started to walk a was hanging his head dramatically. I said to him "I don't know, what happened? I thought we were supposed to go out for beers and the next thing I hear you're hanging out with [the ex] having beers! I didn't know." He came back over to me and said "It wasn't like we went out for beers, it was a bachelor party and we had a couple of beers. I like you, I was just weary because I didn't know how you would feel about that." I told him I didn't know, how that would work, I know the ex would be hurt if he found out that Brent and I went out on a date. But that doesn't change the fact that I like him, and he likes me. Brent said to me "Well, maybe he just wouldn't have to know about this." I told him "Oh, he doesn't get to know anything about my dating life!" Then I said "Well lets do it then, what's your schedule like this week? All I have is school." He said "You have to let me know, am I second in line to the this other guy now?" I told him I didn't have plans, and to let me know when he was available. He said that "From Friday on" he was available, I told him I thought I had class on Saturday morning but that was it. So, he told me to let him know. I need to talk to him tomorrow and see if he wants to go out on Friday or Saturday!
At any rate, he proceeds to inquire as to whether I was seeing anyone, I told him I asked someone out today. He said "You did? Aww...I'm right down the hall and you asked someone else out?" as he started to walk a was hanging his head dramatically. I said to him "I don't know, what happened? I thought we were supposed to go out for beers and the next thing I hear you're hanging out with [the ex] having beers! I didn't know." He came back over to me and said "It wasn't like we went out for beers, it was a bachelor party and we had a couple of beers. I like you, I was just weary because I didn't know how you would feel about that." I told him I didn't know, how that would work, I know the ex would be hurt if he found out that Brent and I went out on a date. But that doesn't change the fact that I like him, and he likes me. Brent said to me "Well, maybe he just wouldn't have to know about this." I told him "Oh, he doesn't get to know anything about my dating life!" Then I said "Well lets do it then, what's your schedule like this week? All I have is school." He said "You have to let me know, am I second in line to the this other guy now?" I told him I didn't have plans, and to let me know when he was available. He said that "From Friday on" he was available, I told him I thought I had class on Saturday morning but that was it. So, he told me to let him know. I need to talk to him tomorrow and see if he wants to go out on Friday or Saturday!
FLOWERS!
Okay, so Kurt sent me flowers for whipping him back into shape last week and to brighten up my Monday. Nothing going on there, not on my end anyways... and hopefully not his either. BUT, because the flower guy came back to deliver them, it pushed me to gain the courage to ask him out today! He said he'd "love to" and that he was glad I asked. He took my number, so now the ball is in his court. I'm so excited! Flowers and hopefully a date with Ray the flower man!
To Arizona or Bust
I made it to Arizona on Friday, and back home last night. What a great weekend! Aside from being burned and bruised, it was a great time!
I'm happy to report that my girlfriend that I was visiting met a very cute boy while we were out on Saturday night. His friend that was trying to make the moves on me was unfortunately not so cute and I was not interested.
I had such a good time, dancing, drinking, napping, laying by the pool, catching up with friends, tubing, and napping some more. It was a well needed getaway for me!
Unfortunately for the blog's sake, I have no new boys to report on. The Navy boy has been in touch... not so sure about him though... there will be more on that later!
I'm happy to report that my girlfriend that I was visiting met a very cute boy while we were out on Saturday night. His friend that was trying to make the moves on me was unfortunately not so cute and I was not interested.
I had such a good time, dancing, drinking, napping, laying by the pool, catching up with friends, tubing, and napping some more. It was a well needed getaway for me!
Unfortunately for the blog's sake, I have no new boys to report on. The Navy boy has been in touch... not so sure about him though... there will be more on that later!
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Navy boy!
Well, much to my surprise I have heard from my cute Navy boy. He has text me a couple of times, and we've spoken. We were going to hang out last night, but I couldn't. He also wanted me to come "have a beer" with him and his friends tonight. I turned him down on that offer as well, it was nearly 10 o'clock when he threw that offer out there. I would have to drive from La Jolla to Coronado and still back home again. I have too much to do tomorrow to be out and about an drinking on a Thursday!
At any rate, I'm going to visit a friend in Phoenix this weekend. I'm sure I'll have some blog-worthy stories to share come Monday. And I think I'll be coming back to a cute Navy boy to see if there are more stories to go along with this hot latin boy!
At any rate, I'm going to visit a friend in Phoenix this weekend. I'm sure I'll have some blog-worthy stories to share come Monday. And I think I'll be coming back to a cute Navy boy to see if there are more stories to go along with this hot latin boy!
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Meanwhile, back at the barracks...
Cutie-pie Navy boy was fun to hang out with this weekend. I went to Coronado to meet up with him and his friends on Friday, it was fun! He was so cute and sweet, I really had a good time with him. Saturday the plan was tour-guiding him and his buddy and his buddy's girlfriend. It turned into "you can meet me here if you want". His demeanor had changed a little towards me. I don't know if it was because he was sober now, but there was a marked difference. I didn't feel like he wanted me there really. I should have left while I was still sober. Isn't that always the case? But I stayed and went to the next bar... still sort of indifferent towards me compared to Friday. A few texts with my friend to put things into perspective (thanks girl!) and I decided to go with the flow. He started getting more flirtatious, so I flirted back. I think it is a drunk thing. I'm pretty sure he's over it, and I'm pretty sure I got too clingy for him. Oh well, at least it was fun.
I think this will most likely be my last post about this little cutie-pie Navy boy!
I think this will most likely be my last post about this little cutie-pie Navy boy!
Thursday, July 5, 2007
It's on!
Mr. Cutie-Pie Navy boy text me today and looks like I get to play tour guide in beautiful San Diego come Saturday!
Happy Hour is My Favorite Hour
Being that I had Wednesday off for the 4th I went to happy hour with a co-worker friend of mine. It was fun! So, of course there were boys out too...
Met some little navy boy, I guess he's not a boy, he's 29, and cute, and a really good kisser I found out! We all ended up hanging out until the bars closed down. I took him back to base and dropped him off.
We'll see if he calls, or if we go out again... I'll keep you updated!
Met some little navy boy, I guess he's not a boy, he's 29, and cute, and a really good kisser I found out! We all ended up hanging out until the bars closed down. I took him back to base and dropped him off.
We'll see if he calls, or if we go out again... I'll keep you updated!
Monday, July 2, 2007
BBQ regrets
Kurt and I had a big long arduous talk today. It sucked. I hate talking about things, and defining things and it sucked.
I like hanging out with him. I want to hang out with him. But he wants to date me and kiss me and God knows what else! I told him I don't want to lead him on and that I can't promise that anything even will happen in the future. Why does everyone want to talk about everything? Why can't we just let things go, let them be? Does everything have to be so defined?
I told him I don't like that when we have a couple of drinks we end up making out. I need to stick to my guns or not. There's not really a half way in between. Not for us. He likes me too much for there to be a halfway between.
We're friends. He says he's cool with that, so we'll see hopefully we can hang out.
I like hanging out with him. I want to hang out with him. But he wants to date me and kiss me and God knows what else! I told him I don't want to lead him on and that I can't promise that anything even will happen in the future. Why does everyone want to talk about everything? Why can't we just let things go, let them be? Does everything have to be so defined?
I told him I don't like that when we have a couple of drinks we end up making out. I need to stick to my guns or not. There's not really a half way in between. Not for us. He likes me too much for there to be a halfway between.
We're friends. He says he's cool with that, so we'll see hopefully we can hang out.
BBQ's and Boys
Regardless of what he says, there is no possible way that Kurt actually likes me. He likes the idea of me. Right? I don't know what to think. He keeps hanging around, which is fine. I like him being around... He says he likes me for all of these reasons. He says "why wouldn't I like you?". He thinks I have my head on straight, that I have my shit together, that I'm smart, funny, cute, fun, thoughtful... Wow.
I think I like him for how he makes me feel about myself. This scares me. I shouldn't be that drawn to some one for how he makes me feel about myself. I should like them for who they are.
We had a BBQ today at my house. It was fun. Grilled some yummy food, drank one too many adult beverages, a good time all in all.
What happened? I was lying in bed and said it would be okay for Kurt to lay with me. What am I doing? Besides sending mixed messages to him. Poor guy. I don't know what to do. I like him, and the more I talk to him, the more I like him. The more similarities I see and hear. I don't know if he's telling me what I want to hear or if this is really what this man is about. How can this be? How can I have things in common wih a man this much older than me? He is 11 years older than I am. He is my brothers friend. He is going through a divorce. I let him kiss me. I kissed him back. Thank God that's as far as it went. I think I would have liked more, but my brain wouldn't allow that to happen. Whew!
I'm not even attracted to him physically. He is not my type, whatever that is. I think I'm attracted to how he makes me feel about myself.
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