Christmas Party

Saturday night was our Christmas party. My brother and I thought it would be fun to host a Christmas party/BBQ for our friend while he was in town from St. Louis. We had so much fun. Everyone had fun. I kept looking at all of the pictures today and smiling about it. What a good time!
Kurt was there, as he is at all of our friend/family functions now, because he too is our friend. I had convinced Kurt to stay the night at our house by selling the breakfast I was going to make in the morning. He shouldn't drive in that condition. He promptly made another drink and agreed. I set up a "bed" for him with some extra blankets in the living room. I was in my room talking to our friend Nick, when my brother came in and said that Kurt and our other friend Jason were leaving. We hopped up to re-convince them both to stay. When we came out, Kurt was already gone and there was no convincing Jason on staying.
The reason I bring this up is the oddness of Kurt. Kurt shouldn't have driven. He had a lot to drink. And when I saw him online and told him as much he told me he "got lonely" so he went to his local bar to find someone to spend the night with. Now, I don't want to be with Kurt, but I do care about him. He is my friend. I really still think that he is wrapped up in the idea of me. This sounds strange, and maybe self-centered, but it's the vibe I'm getting. He keeps telling me we're friends, and that everything is cool. But disappearing acts, odd pouting, and online conversations elude to something else. He could hardly look me in the face after I introduced him to Jeff on Thursday. And he seemed fine with the idea of staying last night until Nick and I were in my room, his tune changed really quick. And tonight while chatting online he said in so many words that this had been a particularly bad week, but I wouldn't know about that. Then he said that he hadn't been "kicked enough yet" and signed off right after telling me to sleep well. Sound fishy to you? Or am I just thinking the world revolves around me when it does not?