BBQ's and Boys

Regardless of what he says, there is no possible way that Kurt actually likes me. He likes the idea of me. Right? I don't know what to think. He keeps hanging around, which is fine. I like him being around... He says he likes me for all of these reasons. He says "why wouldn't I like you?". He thinks I have my head on straight, that I have my shit together, that I'm smart, funny, cute, fun, thoughtful... Wow.
I think I like him for how he makes me feel about myself. This scares me. I shouldn't be that drawn to some one for how he makes me feel about myself. I should like them for who they are.
We had a BBQ today at my house. It was fun. Grilled some yummy food, drank one too many adult beverages, a good time all in all.
What happened? I was lying in bed and said it would be okay for Kurt to lay with me. What am I doing? Besides sending mixed messages to him. Poor guy. I don't know what to do. I like him, and the more I talk to him, the more I like him. The more similarities I see and hear. I don't know if he's telling me what I want to hear or if this is really what this man is about. How can this be? How can I have things in common wih a man this much older than me? He is 11 years older than I am. He is my brothers friend. He is going through a divorce. I let him kiss me. I kissed him back. Thank God that's as far as it went. I think I would have liked more, but my brain wouldn't allow that to happen. Whew!
I'm not even attracted to him physically. He is not my type, whatever that is. I think I'm attracted to how he makes me feel about myself.